16 years back to bid farewell

I heard Our Father's calling to meet Fr P before his transfer to another parish. i made a new discovery. It's Fr A's friendly system I like, not  Fr P's administrative system at church. I'm v glad that I was far from emotional. I was glad it is GOD Our Father I am emotionally attached to, not the church building or the people.

Ironically, the garden, the foyer, the canteen and the walls of the church house haunting memories of the most challenging part of my life but also fond memories of the RCIA, catechists and parents who embraced me with love, friendship and guidance. 

It is very sad that aging means people and places that we know are passing away. It is happening at a speed that is going faster yet my physical and mental abilities used to be so spot-on, accurate, fast and agile, is slowing down, then is getting slower and even slower... I lost my beloved grandparents, my father in-law, my first uncle, my own dad, My Bukit Ho Swee East Primary becomes SEAB, my JJC is merging into Pioneer JC. My parents' first house is due for demolition and my late grandparents' house within a stone's throw from it was demolished. Not much of my future is remaining. Sometimes, I feel time is running out. My future is bleak - greying and dying. I realize that only GOD Our Father is perpetual, only his love is eternal.

But, Our Father, will my life after death on earth be happier? More optimistic? Will I be reunited with my friends and loved ones who passed on before me? Sobbing